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Maybe, in this case, 'maybe' is the only reason.

Maybe we’re both so similar yet so different at the same time. 

Maybe I know you too well, to the point that I can’t understand you. 

Maybe I loved you in a way you couldn’t understand, and you were hurt in a way I couldn’t fix. 

Maybe we just happened to love each other so much,

that it’s breaking us in a way we never knew 

was possible.

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