I’ll try to let these feelings fall the way the petals did.

Slowly, without asking to bloom again.

I’ll try to stop searching for you
in places I know you no longer are.

I’ll try to let you go without waiting
for you to come back with the answer
I once hoped you’d find.

I’ll try to feel all of it.
The disappointment, the anger, and the sorrow.
Even if I still understand why it all had to break.

I’ll try not to reach for a version of us
that never learned how to stay again.

I’ll try to accept that this was the very last page.

I’ll try to say no when my heart begs
to remember you one more time.

And I’ll try to stop looking for a new way
to love you from afar.

And I’ll learn to do it better.
Day after day after day.